I had the best time with you at the zoo. I especially enjoyed watching the green anaconda. It was like the lava lamp of animal attractions. The gorillas and chimps were close runners up.

And it was such a gorgeous day. You and me, two creatures meandering along the various paths to view other creatures, whatever their genus or species. Also, that moment where that little nutria-like creature took a piss and then proceeded to drink said piss was magical.

I love how we can’t keep our hands off one another the moment you arrive. I love kissing you while you walk backwards. I love when you watch me apply makeup. I love eating chili on a shared TV tray with you. I love you singing to me anywhere, from anywhere, but most of all, I love it when you sing to me in bed lying next to me.

We did all of the above and more today. I also told you that words fail to describe the extent of my life for you…probably because it’s impossible to describe the extent of something that has no end. I meant those things from the bottom of my heart, just like I’ve meant every sweet word I’ve ever written on this blog about our love.

I’ve also written recently on this blog about how your words matter to me. I want to un-hear what you said about being sorry if you’ve somehow led me down some rose-colored path where you and I have a future together. I just cannot get those words out of my head, and honestly, they are still tearing me up inside. I do feel like you’ve given me reason to hold out hope for you and me. I feel like your remark somehow diminished my right to have that hope. And I need that hope.