Baby. This is so hard. I need you to hold me. I want to believe you’ll always be there. It is breaking my heart to have that called into question.

I told you I needed some time to heal and I feel like I am getting somewhere with that healing until something comes up.

I am very, very sensitive. I want you to know that I am putting everything I have into handling myself. But like I said above, it is so hard.

Nothing soothes me like being held by you. And I need you to hold me. And you cannot. But I need it so badly through this.