Hi baby.

I don’t want to say anything to make you sad or make you hurt. I feel conflicted because it makes my heart swell when you say we’re going to stay together, but at the same time, thinking about staying with me makes you sad.

Being with you over the past few weeks has really meant a lot to me, which also makes me feel conflicted because I know you had asked me for that time to yourself.

It upsets me so much that the things that have made me the happiest recently seem to require the expense of your feelings and emotional well-being. But, at the very least, know that I really needed that time with you.

I needed to talk to you. I needed to sleep with you, eat with you, and practice living a life with you in a non-Utah setting. I am so grateful I got to do that and I really hope you don’t regret it.

It goes without saying that I love you endlessly and hope that you wake up happier today than you were when we last communicated. I am so sleepy and I am sure i have inundated you with enough words today to last several months. So goodnight my sweet love. May your spirits be revitalized upon the morning light.