Last night I had a very good dream. I dreamed I heard your voice on the phone. I don’t remember exactly what was said, but it was both mundane and heavenly at the same time.

it is painful for me to think that you live in a world where you are required to either denounce your love for me or be silent as to its existence. It makes me very sad for you because I think the love you have for me, like all love, is a part of who you are.

I think that the likely scenario is that you did not tell Robin or anyone else with a stake in the affair that you love me. That you called me your soul mate. That you told me you couldn’t imagine a world where we didn’t love each other. I think most people understand that you can’t just flip that switch off.

So that’s why I think you haven’t been forthcoming with the truth about us—because it would be unreasonable for someone faced with the truth about you and me to expect you to stop loving me simply because I wasn’t around.

I understand that it has been excruciating to partially come clean, but failing to say that you love me perpetuates a lie. It deprives agency as much as it did to be in the closet about the entire affair.

Being in love with me, being my soul mate, being my counterpart are not merely details no one needs to know. Those aren’t the sort of things you can withhold in order to avoid unnecessarily hurting the feelings of someone you love. They are defining and immutable aspects of the relationship we had…or have, depending upon who you ask.

It is ultimately your choice on what you want to say about you and me, but if you cannot be honest about loving me, then it’s inaccurate to say that we broke up in service of the truth. And while you really don’t need to have any reason at all to break up with me when it comes right down to it, the truth is a particularly noble one.

I love you. You say you’re broken. I don’t think that’s true. I just think you’re trapped. If I could do anything differently, it would be telling you that I wanted to be with you. If I hadn’t have done that, then maybe you would still be escaping with me. That would be heavenly.