Megan is really impressed by the barrister wig.
You are so thoughtful. You really made that so special for me. That day was the culmination of everything I’ve been working for. And you were there. You were the one there. With that wig.
I don’t know, Craig. I have never been treated The way you treat me. That’s not to say I’m treated poorly. Anyone can see that’s not true.
But the way you look at me makes my knees weak. The way you sing to me. And you listen. You care.
You get me. You really do. I have this easy intimacy with you. You have a full life and yet you manage to make me feel very….
I was going to say special. You do make me feel special. I loved walking into the dining room at Brennens and seeing how you looked at me like I was everything. I felt like everything. You have so much in your life besides me, and yet you make me feel like I am everything to you when we are together.
But Baby, it’s not just that you make me feel special. It’s that when I am with you, I feel like you think I am enough. And I that’s the big thing. It may be THE big thing. With you, I don’t feel like I have to sell myself because you’re on board with both feet. And I feel like I can exhale. I have been waiting my whole life to feel this way. It is as satisfying as I always dreamed it would be.
Megan also commented that you had obviously affected me. She said that she could hear how I felt in the way I speak about you.
How do I speak about you? Well, when I speak to her about you, I tell her first about how you treat me. The things we do.. I tell her that it’s not just how you treat me, but how you take me—in every sense of the word. When I speak about you, my voice gets a bit lower and a bit softer.
I think about how this time last week we were putting our clothes on and getting Chinese food and then we went out and we sang.
I understand why we can’t communicate. I really do. I know it has to be this way. I know. But also, it’s kinda killing me inside.
I’m taking some deep breaths. I think about your fingertips running up and down along my spine. I think about curving that spine upwards, pushing my heart against yours. You have completely blown my mind.
Also, got my spray tan.
God I miss you.
