I promise you that someday this will all make sense and that you will not feel confused anymore. When you picked up your phone tonight, I was immediately glad that I called. There is nowhere I would rather be right now than next to you, petting you. I would be happy even to lie in the dark with you, taking turns crying.

I loved our date yesterday, My Love. All of it. Being with you comes so naturally to me. I feel like we are becoming more and more adept at having difficult conversations. I truly have the sense that there is nothing I cannot say to you and nothing you couldn’t talk to me about. I have never experienced anything like this with another person. Not like this. Not to this degree. It makes it possible to really get outside of myself with you. It allows me to give you everything.

We were talking about what I would lose if you were no longer a part of my life. Simply put, I would lose the love I’ve been waiting for my entire life. I have been looking for you inside everyone I’ve ever met. If you were to go away, I would keep trying to find you in everyone and anything, and I’d spend the rest of my life waiting for you to change your mind.

I would learn to love waiting for you because waiting would be an act performed out of love for you. And I love loving you.