I promised you I would never stop writing you love letters, and I will keep this promise. Your future is filled with love letter from me…because I love you so much.

I have been recklessly myself with you. That’s why it is so hard not to take it personally when you tell me you have doubts about the quality of your life in a future where you and I are together. I think about all the times I’ve opened my mouth and said things I shouldn’t have.

I wonder if I was lazy by putting everything out there for you to see. Surely, being more editorial in my presentation of my self would have required more effort than just going balls-to-the-wall.

You say you want a future with me. What do you think is possible? What do you kind of want? Hopefully, you want love letters.

But what else? What do you want from a life with me? Is there anything I can do to make your life better?

I don’t know, Craig. I feel a little scattered. I feel a bit self conscious. I don’t feel like this blog post is very pretty and I am sorry for that. My heart hurts a bit. I know you don’t want that. I promise it will get better. I just want my confidence back. I want to love you with confidence.