The entry before this one was published before I spoke with you this morning. I loved our conversation today and seeing your face. I was able get a better understanding of where we were, how you were doing, and how you feel about me. I do not feel so erasable now. Neither do I feel so confused. Thank you.
I remain awkward about how to discuss my own desire for you. Talking about each other’s bodies and what we want to do to them is something we’ve always had fun doing. And it’s been awhile. I can imagine a lot of things I’d like to do to your body, as well as things I long for you to do to mine. I want to talk to you about them and make your cock hard and wet with precum.
But I also have that mental image of you sitting on the ground near my door with your knees to your chest like I was a sexual predator you had to hide from. I felt like a monster. Or like you thought I was a monster, which is just as bad.
But I’m going to go out on a limb and assume it wasn’t me. That it was an emotionally fraught event among a series of days brimming with emotionally fraught events. Im going to assume that until you tell me otherwise.
I’m going to assume that until you tell me that you don’t want me to moan and arch my back underneath you while you shoot your cum to blazes inside me. Until you tell me you tell me you don’t want to feel me get wetter and tighter on your cock as you slowly pump in and out of me. Until you tell me you hate it when I cum on your tongue and and then take a good, hard fuck from you.
I think about making love from your point of view. I think about how I must feel to you in addition to all the thinking I do about the way your body feels to me. How small, compact, and warm to the touch I must feel. I think about how it must feel to be between my legs, thrusting up with your cock, your hands around my little wrists.
I love touching your chest, your shoulders, your arms. All your muscles in your back as you bear down on me. I love licking your cock from top to bottom and all around.
Please tell me if any of this is offensive.
