*update: check your work email I sent you an audible book

I can’t sleep either. I spend the day sitting in some remote headquarters of my brain, flipping switches, trying to keep this machine functioning. As you know, I enjoy mind-body connection. It really provides me with a sense of overall harmony. I’m not a fan of my new dualistic operating system. It’s not my brand.

When I saw you were drawing up plans for your dream house with Robin again, my heart sank. I am so stupid. One thing that gnaws at me is that, had things gone another way, you wouldn’t have erased Robin the way I feel like you’re erasing me.

I think that’s what hurts the most. The feeling of being erased. Please don’t tell me I’ll always be a part of you and therefore I’m not being erased. I don’t want to be just a memory, or an idea in your head, or the essence of me. I’m more than any of those things. I am me. I’m a real live person.

Megan sent me this really, really spendy strand of black pearls for Christmas. She bought them for herself years ago…well, actually, her dad bought them for her, and there’s a long story behind that.

She was nuts for them, but they didn’t fit her. I’m nuts for them too, and as luck would have it, they look pretty nice on me.

This is what I wore to Pretty Woman. Based on what I saw, it was really good. Sadly, Bryan Adams wrote the songs. Turns out, Bryan Adams music reminds me of you because we fucked so much to it. I had to leave at intermission because I was either sad, aroused, or both. Your guess.

Lastly, the reason “Stay” is on Smule is because I made the karaoke version for you to sing and put it on Smule. I knew you’d been looking for it. I’m so glad you sang the shit out of it.