Dear Mistah Wahrshboirn,
Seeing you was somethin’ else.
Kissing you. Touching you. Holding each other. Laughing. Eating delicious cereal. You singing to me with my head on your chest. I have emerged from our afternoon love cocoon as a butterfly.
Not only do I feel much better than I have felt since you broke up with me two weeks ago, but I feel better than I have in months. It’s as if a giant weight has been lifted off my chest.
Thank you for seeing me, Craig. I don’t feel like a lot of people would have understood what I was asking for when I spoke to you Saturday. I feel like a lot of people would look at this blog, look at my fucking karaoke songs, at my Marco Polos, etc. and write me off as a weirdo. I mean, I sang Hallelujah…and meant it.
I know you don’t think im a weirdo—at least not in a discriminatory way. This is what I was talking about when I said I always felt comfortable putting my emotions out there with you. You are not afraid of intimacy. You don’t ever make me feel judged. I need that. You are a safe place for me. I love you for that.
Making love with you—all of it—is out of this world. I can’t rightly explain, but it was very emotional for me to feel you enter me. It was so sensual and, dare I say, erotic. But also, I was overwhelmed by all these other feelings that I can’t quite describe.
Yeah. That’s right. 🎶🎵 Indescribable feeeeeeeelings 🎶🎵
I mean, really. I can’t describe the tidal wave of feelings that swept over me at that moment….except to say that they were wonderful feelings and that there were many of them. If you know what I’m talking about and can string together better words to explain it, be my guest. Moments like these, where I’m at a loss for words, are rare.
I love you, Craig. It is impossible for me to tell you that too much. Once is enough to last forever, but I can never say it too much. I love being your friend. Your lover. Your buddy. Your escape. Your girlfriend. Your whatever. Your anything. It’s all the same. It’s all everything.
It’s all in love.
Love, Cassie
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